New Year, Improved Me!

As 2017 comes to a close, we find ourselves thinking of our new years resolutions "New Year, New Me" type of mind sets. For me, I plan to take the time I have off to finish reflecting on my year. So instead of a new me, its a better me. I want to reflect on what worked for me, what didn't work for me, what changes were made and why? Anything I feel that will help me be a better me and guide me on the path to continue. I want my readers to do the same. Think of the upcoming year as an opportunity to grow, not an opportunity to transform into a totally new person . This could result to not working out and reverting to old bad habits. I am going to be as transparent as possible, plus this is the most effective way to reach those in need. So, lets begin!

I believe that if my heart is not in something, I am unable to provide you with my best service.

This was one of my most trying years. For some time, I had been struggling to find happiness and purpose in the jobs I had chosen. My first job moving to Columbus was working in child welfare as an ongoing caseworker, it lasted all but nine months. The job was draining and I knew my heart was not in it. I believe that if my heart is not in something, I am unable to provide you with my best service. So I decided to put my notice in once I found a new job. Soon enough I found a new job, I thought this was a great stepping stone for my career and I was excited. I knew the job had some cons (I.e the pay sucked) but I thought to myself "this will give you a peace of mind" and "this is more related to your career". However, I lasted about six months. Soon after getting the hang of the job, my duties shifted and didn't align with the things that made me take the position in the first place. Not to mention, some of my coworkers were immature and it felt like high school all over again. I wasn't getting paid enough or getting the experience I thought to stay. So I left! I refuse to be in a place that does not fulfill me. Now, I understand the job market is difficult, but think about what really suffers when you do not take the actions to a peace of mind.

I will admit, it is not easy allowing yourself to be vulnerable, but releasing the control of the painful "what ifs" and allowing the beauty of vulnerability control your happiness, is well worth it.

On a positive note, if you read "The Shift to Happiness", you know that I got into a relationship several months ago. It has been one of the best things that has happened to me this year. Do not get me wrong, it was trying as well, but in a different way. Being in a relationship I am learning so much about myself. It has taught me that I had some unaddressed issues lingering from my childhood. I have always been a private person, but I learned that I had so many guards up. I was stunting my own happiness. One of my biggest things was being vulnerable. Vulnerability is scary and I know I wasn't allowing myself to be completely vulnerable with people. However, I learned that you only hurt yourself more not being vulnerable. I can say that this was one of the most impactful lessons I have learned. It continues to strengthen my relationship and it helped me creatively. I even began to write more and not just my blogs but in my poetry. I have shared my most personal fears and thoughts through my work. Understanding this lesson has allowed me to be more accepting of what comes with vulnerability. I will admit, it is not easy allowing yourself to be vulnerable, but releasing the control of the painful "what ifs" and allowing the beauty of vulnerability control your happiness, is well worth it. 

Really think about your influences throughout this year because they can be the blueprint to your best life.

Just from those two situations alone, has manifested many opportunities for growth. Eye opening changes that will be a platform for a better me. Now it is your turn. Take some time, find some relaxing music (Spotify's Deep Focus playlist is great) or silence to really reflect on your year. What has been the most impactful? Did a situation or relationship go south? What new doors opened for you? Who was your best and biggest support through your good and bad times? Really think about your influences throughout this year because they can be the blueprint to your best life. By doing so, you will be able to see what got you in the place that you are in currenlty. Write them down or take a mental note. Use them as a point of reference when going into the new year. It may not be a New Year, New You, but it can definitely be a fresh start to greatness. 

 

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